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Why am I avoiding writing... o.O
It’s like I'm doing everything I can to avoid add to any word document.
I mean normally it's a matter of I've been working on it at work and I don't wanna take my lazy ass down stairs to get the SD adapter for the SD memory card so I can move the documents from my phone to my computer (I can type fairly well on my QWERTY phone but I type a hell of a lot fast on a keyboard... plus the computer had spell/grammar check which I desperately need.) so I can work on and update my computer files at the same time.
Ya know, it's kinda like how I used to write in notebooks and then transcribe it to my computer... only now I don't have to retype/write anything again.
But the thing is... the f***ing SD adapter is right here! It’s so close that I can touch it without removing my hands from the keyboard.
HUH!
It goes further than that. I have been avoiding writing on my cell phone too? In stead of working on one of the many fics I should be working on I put it off to read fanfic... even rereading fanfics that I have already read several times! Even fanfics that I know to be not so stellar on characterization or grammar just because they are really long fics!
See I'm doing this thing again. I like get the urge to write and I do. I get in a really good groove and all I do is write for a month... then something knocks me out of the groove and it takes me seven... eight... twelve months without opening a word document at all. That's what happens... that's why I end up going a year + without posting fics. I'm doing it again...
When was the last time I posted a chapter of something? May? April? And I am well aware that drabbles shouldn't count... I am so, so very disappointed with myself. I have totally failed my the first part of my NOT!New Year's Resolution to put out a chapter or a fic every month of 2009. The second part, which I said I was not going to declare when I made it at the beginning of the year because I suspected that I wouldn't be able to fulfill it... I haven't failed yet but I am way on my way to. It's already mid October which means I have two and a half months to get it done... I all WELL, WELL behind the projected curve.
I'm not gonna give up though.
I'm still gonna try, which means I have to stop writing this post and open a word document and get to work
It’s like I'm doing everything I can to avoid add to any word document.
I mean normally it's a matter of I've been working on it at work and I don't wanna take my lazy ass down stairs to get the SD adapter for the SD memory card so I can move the documents from my phone to my computer (I can type fairly well on my QWERTY phone but I type a hell of a lot fast on a keyboard... plus the computer had spell/grammar check which I desperately need.) so I can work on and update my computer files at the same time.
Ya know, it's kinda like how I used to write in notebooks and then transcribe it to my computer... only now I don't have to retype/write anything again.
But the thing is... the f***ing SD adapter is right here! It’s so close that I can touch it without removing my hands from the keyboard.
HUH!
It goes further than that. I have been avoiding writing on my cell phone too? In stead of working on one of the many fics I should be working on I put it off to read fanfic... even rereading fanfics that I have already read several times! Even fanfics that I know to be not so stellar on characterization or grammar just because they are really long fics!
See I'm doing this thing again. I like get the urge to write and I do. I get in a really good groove and all I do is write for a month... then something knocks me out of the groove and it takes me seven... eight... twelve months without opening a word document at all. That's what happens... that's why I end up going a year + without posting fics. I'm doing it again...
When was the last time I posted a chapter of something? May? April? And I am well aware that drabbles shouldn't count... I am so, so very disappointed with myself. I have totally failed my the first part of my NOT!New Year's Resolution to put out a chapter or a fic every month of 2009. The second part, which I said I was not going to declare when I made it at the beginning of the year because I suspected that I wouldn't be able to fulfill it... I haven't failed yet but I am way on my way to. It's already mid October which means I have two and a half months to get it done... I all WELL, WELL behind the projected curve.
I'm not gonna give up though.
I'm still gonna try, which means I have to stop writing this post and open a word document and get to work
